It took decades for me to finally “get it.” That, thanks be to GOD, whatever she felt for me wasn’t love. That realization brought me hope. But also, that what she held dear in her heart for me at a very young age was a death wish. That realization has brought me a lot of clarity.
By all accounts, we were a conservative, hard-working, middle-class family. It’s amazing just how far apart the public image of a dark personality person can be from the experience of someone who lives with them.